it's me again. still me.but alot has changed.then again, not that much. I don't think we can wait till we have it all figured out, like a plan or trail marked on a map and then say, OK, now I'm going to start to live. It just doesn't work like that. I think we have to be brave enough to go it without much guidance, sort of making up the rules as we go, and smart enough not to do anything too stupid. I think I think too much.I think I think in circles.I think that if I think I think in circles that it will limit what I think because of how I think I think. I think that it's beautiful, but it has become so hard to see it outweigh what's ugly.I think it's best to rush into it, sometimes before your thinking carries you away, it's best to do alot before you think something stupid.or more dangerously, smart. I think I understand a little bit more about love, and alot less about everything else. I am going to go contradict myself and read philosophy now.